The Prognossis

So, I don’t know if I mentioned this, but I went to the dr 10 days ago for a few reasons. I have been aching all over, extreme exhaustion, random nausea, light headedness, increased depression, and a few other things that I can’t remember – oh yeah a fuzzy feeling where I forget or kinda lose focus. Anyway, so I got a bunch of blood work done and I came back slightly positive for lupus. So I have to go see a specialist and get more testing.

Here are the symptoms, the bold ones I have:

* Fatigue
* Fever
* Weight loss or gain
* Joint pain, stiffness and swelling
* Butterfly-shaped rash (malar rash) on the face that covers the cheeks and bridge of the nose
* Skin lesions that appear or worsen with sun exposure
* Mouth sores
* Fingers and toes that turn white or blue when exposed to cold or during stressful periods (Raynaud’s phenomenon)
* Shortness of breath
* Chest pain
* Dry eyes
* Easy bruising
* Anxiety
* Depression
* Memory loss

So there you go. I am taking daypro to help with my joint pain. So far…nothing, but I did just start it. Also upped my Prozac.

In other news the kids are good, though I think Landen is getting a cold or something. The dog is still crapping all over my damn house, and, uh, yeah I am going to add a page for pictures some day. I need to upload them to Flickr. I did finally manage to move them from my camera to my computer though….believe me that took months alone.

Anyway, I need to sleep. I am SUPER tired, like always.

…Uck

So the boys and I are sick – still sick I should say. Aiden has been sick for a week now, Landen since last Friday. He actually had to go to the ER this last Saturday because his breathing was strained. Turns out he has croup and an ear infection so he is on antibiotics, as is Aiden. I have yet to go to the dr, but I too am sick. It sucks.

However, despite our illness we went to Andrew’s station commander’s house. Mike and Beth are pretty nice, I had a lot of fun, seeing as this was my first outing in a long long time. They have a 3 yr old and a 20mo old and one due in a few days. We just hung out, the kids, all sick, watched cartoons and felt each other out, and us adults talked and ate. It was pretty great. I hope we get to do it again soon.

In other news, I am officially graduating from UAF on the 11th of this month, all though the graduation office gave me a scare when they couldn’t find the petition waiving my 1/2 oral credit. It was found though. So, I have applied for assistance for day care and OSU will lend me the money to go to school. All I have left is my final in my social work class – I have to write up case notes for an appointment scenario as well as a care plan. Fun. Tonight will be a LONG night.

Anyway, that’s really it. Hope everyone is well.

Back in the Game

So, I am officially enrolled at OSU for the fall semester – now to just get the money to pay for classes and daycare… I will be spending more to attend OSU in two years than I did for the 5 I have student loans out for at UAF. Amazing. Good thing my salery will be for paying off debt and “fun” stuff. Of course, that’s two years from now…

So, needless to say I am now stressing about going back to school at such a huge campus and abandoning my kids at daycare. I feel like such a terrible mom entrusting them to someone else. I don’t think Landen has been away from me more than 8 hours at a time, and that was only once. Aiden, on the other hand, has not been away from me more than 2 or 3 hours, and that too is rare. All though Landen does play well with the other kids at the playground in our housing complex….I keep telling myself I am helping them by getting my degree and offering them things like a big yard, good schooling, and extra goodies as well as a college fund by doing this, but then I feel guilty sacrificing my time with them. Ug.

Anyway, I need to stop thinking about all that crap. So, the kids and I are sick – sore throat, runny nose, sinus headache, and cough. Fun times. So I have been up all night with Aiden and Landen has been waking up with a dry/soar throat and needs water and his bink. However, thank god for cold meds, because they are actually PLAYING while I type this – do you know the last time they were good like this? Like a month ago, for real. I have been going nuts with the whining and crying all freaking day, and thanks to good old triaminic cold they are nice…until the meds wear off lol.

So I guess that is really all. I am going to go pretend I feel okay and either play with the kids, crash on the couch, or go tend to Aiden who is now crying…it was nice while it lasted.