So, as most of you know (or maybe don’t), I am usually fairly depressed. I suspect dysthymia since I have like all the criteria. As a result, I am usually a past-backward thinker. Meaning I think of the way things would have been better had I made different choices. As a social worker, and someone with common sense, I realize this isn’t the best way to think as it does nothing to change anything. I can’t go back in time, and despite my illogical event sequencing of differing choice paths, there is no guarantee that things would have been the way I imagine. The point of this is that I am attempting to focus on future forward thinking.
Logically, I cannot go back in time and change anything. As a result I have decided that what I can change now is me. So I have decided to integrate and assimilate parts of what I wish I had done into my life now. The first thing is socializing. While I have never been a social butterfly, I do like having friends and hanging out. So, I am attempting to go out more. First step, going canoeing and hanging with the Kyle’s again. Second step, Eclipse Premier Tuesday night with girls from my class. Third step, joining a fall sports city league. And so the steps will continue.
I think after that I will start upping the ante by trying to import research and submitting papers to journals. I always thought that I would be doing research, and if I want to go to step three, I need to be published. So, there you go. I am attempting to slowly incorporate 3 aspects of the life I dream I would have had, had I made different choices, into the life that I have now. I think this way I get the best of both worlds 
