Being Proactive-ish

So, I have decided that I am sick of being achy all the time, depressed, and over weight so I am taking the steps, finally, to try and move toward a healthier happier me. I have kinda started going to the gym, and i say kind of because I went and was in a lot of pain afterwords so I kinda avoided going again. Then i went to the rhumotologist and am trying to come to terms with the fact that the aching I have isn’t normal. It’s all over and ranges from kinda noticable to unbearable. I am not sure how they diagnose one with fybromyalgia, I think it is basically a ruling out of everything else which apparently is what the blood work was for. So I am on 3 different meds for that now. I also made an appointment with a psychiatrist to work on my mental health. I have battled depression all my life and I am ready to get advise on tools I can use to overcome it. I figure since I hope to me working with mentally ill people perhaps i should get my own straightend out.

As for the meds, I took them for the first time last night and I was up at 3am and couldn’t go back to slee. I am feeling a little like I am high on cold meds, internally shaky and my head is fuzzy. However, the dr said that part of my pain at the gym is this fybromyalgia stuff so hopefully the meds will allow me to work out harder.

In other news the kids are doing great. Both are talking up a storm! I swear Aiden learns 2 new words a day! He knows where is belly and ears are and Landen is learning is colors and shapes – though he calls triangles pizza lol.

Andrew is doing okay, other than a bad backache. He is still working a lot but I don’t think that will change any time soon. We hear he is supposed to be a station commander here soon, so here’s to hoping!

I hope everyone is doing well and i will post more as it happens!

Soooo….yeah

So, here we are, some time later and I still got nothing. I started a new quarter than involves 4 classes and 16 hours of interning – all of which I enjoy for the most part once I get there. the kids are still my kids – loud and crazy. We got Aiden his first hair cut and he hated it, much like his brother. Andrew is still here, he still works all the time, and he still enjoys recruting.

I wish I had something entertaining to tell you – oh heres a little antidote for the day. Aiden was in daycare today and he was making a pouty face so the teacher jokingly told him to plug it, which I tell him all the time, so he put his bink in and made a pouty face lol. She said she couldn’t stop laughing! Ah good times. As for Landen he is doing so much better!! He talks so much more and is getting better at playing with others. Aiden has a pretty large vocabulary and speaks pretty clearly. His new word is “jacket”.

Um, what else? I am not doing well on the diet thing. I have been hungry and therefore eating a lot of shit. I am really going to try and get back into it. My problem stands with working out. I am in class or interning until 2 almost every day, then I have 1.5 hours to do something around the house (dishes, a quick clean of something, a load of laundry) then I pick up the boys and come home, do some more hanging out with them, spot cleaning then get ready for the next day and read some homwork before crashing and starting all over at 6am the next day. I don’t know where I can throw a work out in. I could take the boys to the gym and put them in the daycare but how unfair is that? I don’t know…ug. So here I am.

Well I better put dishes away, rewash the load of laundry I forgot about, fold the one thats in the dryer and start getting ready for tomorrow. Hope everyone is well!