I Hear There is a Light at the End of this Tunnel…

So, there are only 6 more days in this quarter and I am trying to push through and make it. I still have 1 online quiz (next Tuesday), a poster presentation (on Monday) and a reflection paper (due Monday). Not a lot really, but when you are burnt out and just want to sleep, well lets just say sleep and getting stuff done doesn’t go well together! I feel bad because I have been super cranky with the kids because I am tired, burnt out, and sick…oh yes, still sick. I just want a break! Only 6 more days…. My only concern is that I am all ready so burnt out after one quarter, how in the hell am I going to get through the next 5? Starting next quarter I not only have class but also an internship 2 days a week. What in the world am I going to do then? I can’t even do all the homework and reading now! Ug. I am excited/scared about my internship. I will be on an outreach team in the community and a case manager, I don’t even know what the hell a case manager does!! I talk to my field instructor next week so I guess I will tell him then I have never done anything like this before and I want lots of training so I don’t mess up!

In other news about me, I joined weight watchers again, and in the last 2 weeks managed to loose 15lbs. I know everyone thinks I must be starving myself, but seriously, I use all my points and eat. I am rarely hungry, except maybe just before I go to bed, but usually I have enough points left for a quick snack of fruit or popcorn. I am going to start slowly adding exercise as well and hopefully that will prevent a plateau. I want to get down to 150 (I was 155 at my lightest) and am at 205. However, because that is such a huge goal, I am just aiming for the below 200 mark, then I will get myself a little congrats present I am hoping to obtain this goal by Christmas!

As for Andrew, he is still gone. He will be home in about 9 days, so not to much longer. I am hoping he will get his leave and be off for 10 days, just in time for a 4 day weekend for Christmas, then another for New Years! YAY! This is really the only time of year Andrew ever has any time off so I am pretty excited, plus I won’t have homework so we can actually hang out, which will be a nice change of pace. Maybe go get a nice lunch together while the kids are in daycare, see a movie…something. Plus he needs time to relax I am sure.

The kids are doing good, Aiden’s ear infection came back so he is on stronger antibiotics. The daycare isn’t so happy because he poops so much on them. And by poops I mean out of the diaper and on all his clothes lol. But he is feeling better again. I still feel guilty about leaving them in the care of someone else, it makes me feel like I am not a good parent, but they love it so much and play so well with the other kids that I also feel bad not taking them. I sometimes watch them and I am so impressed/proud of them but I wish that I could give them that as well. It is very hard sometimes. I just feel like I should be a better mom and should have them at home with me instead of me going out and enjoying my time away from them. God I feel terrible just saying I like being away from them! Ug.

Anyway, what i am saying is they are doing great Mommy is now just for cuddling and tackeling and playing ball with. If you want pictures check out either my myspace or facebook pages. I have their school pics up there.

As for everyone else, I hope you are doing well! I will be back next week after everything is over and give an update then!