Merry Christmas…n’ stuff

So I am not really sure what to update on. The kids are good, still slightly sick but I am not sure that will change. I am all right, still alive anyway. Just really really really super tired and just wishing that I could live on the couch and not have to be bothered to do anything. Andrew is home, and back to work. He has a 4 day weekend so that’s something. The kids have a 5 day weekend.

The internship is going well. It’s interesting to see the scope of mental illness and the different ways people deal with those illnesses. The way that an illness can shape your whole life and perspective amazes me. I am going back in next week and am excited/nervous about it still, but it’s good.

The kids still are okay with daycare, though I think they are getting sick again because both are clingy and needy lately. I am hoping that Christmas goes over better this year, since last year they were not cool with the whole concept. I think it took 2 or 3 days to open all of the presents. So we tried to keep it to a minimum and anything we did wrap I made sure it took as little time as possible to open. Some we are just putting together and leaving out so they don’t even have to worry about it. I will have to take some pics.

As for Andrew, who knows, he goes to work, he comes home sometimes he plays with the kids….

…so I don’t know what else to say. I hope everyone has a Merry Christmas!! (or whatever it is you celebrate)

Today is the Day

So, I have managed to get nothing done the last two weeks. The boys have been sick again. I took them in On Tues for colds, the same ones they have had since September, and the Dr. is thinking that they are allergic to something at the daycare which has compromised their immune system to the point that they can’t fight off all the other germs on top of trying to fight the allergy. Fun. So this afternoon I have to take them back to the dr and get the test thing so I can take them to Children’s Hospital for blood work to check for allergies, anemia, and an antibody count.

Yesterday I met with my field instructor at Southeast. I like him, he’s a cool/funny guy and can find humor in some really depressing situations. He says to succeed at this job you need to have outside interests and to be able to leave everthing that happens there at the door when you leave as well as the ability to laugh at situations. He also said that since I am so green I will have a lot of challenges, especially since he is throwing me in head first and seeing if I can swim. I told him I will be doing the back float and hoping for the best. The good news is I get an awesome swipey card and a parking code!

Other than that, not much really. Andrew comes home today so as soon as I post this I am going to be cleaning like crazy. I have until 2 to clean the house, and trust me every inch is dirty! I haven’t really had a chance to clean. I got some stuff clean last Friday, but then over the weekend the kids undid it all, then Monday and Tues I had finals plus taking the kids in, Weds I went Christmas shopping with Jill all day and then Thursday I met with my field instructor. Shit this has been a long week! I was thinking that all I did this week took two weeks – dang!

Christmas shopping was a success. I got the boys some jammies, a table with a train set, Mickey Mouse Clubhouse for Landen and a Barn Yard activity set for Aiden. I just have to get some stocking stuffers and I am set! Oh and figure something out for Andrew…. I got me new clothes! I need decent sweaters for my internship and I got new pants since I dropped from an 18 or 20ish to a 16. I am very excited! I only bought a couple pairs because I am still planning to loose more. Also, my wedding ring almost fits again.

So, I guess that’s really it. Andew will be home sometime tonight and the kids will yell with excitment to see him, then ignore him lol. Poor guy! Anyway, I seriously need to clean!! Hope you all have a great weekend!

So Close Yet So Far Away

I am anxiously awaiting Tuesday afternoon when I will be officially done for the quarter. I can’t tell you how much I want this break and the freedom to chuck a ton of papers and not have to worry about homework or not doing all my reading or stressing about how I am going to balance class and an internship for a few short, precious, weeks.

I set up the Christmas tree yesterday afternoon after spending a fortune at Target getting a tree skirt, shatter proof ornaments, and a wreath. Christmas would be a lot more fun if I didn’t have to spend so much damn money. However, the look on the boys faces when they came home and saw the tree was priceless! They both yelled “lights!” and ran for the tree lol. Of course Landen wants to touch all the ornaments and Aiden wants to take them off and run around with/throw them. Like I said, thank God for shatter proof ornaments and plastic hooks! I am also getting in the Christmas spirit by downloading Christmas MP3’s off Amazon.

In other news, only one more week until Andrew is home! I can’t wait. Maybe we will even go on a date one day We will see. I just know that I will be glad to have some help, however little it is.

Anyway, that is all Hope you are getting in the Christmas/Holiday (look at me being all P.C.!) spirit too!

I Hear There is a Light at the End of this Tunnel…

So, there are only 6 more days in this quarter and I am trying to push through and make it. I still have 1 online quiz (next Tuesday), a poster presentation (on Monday) and a reflection paper (due Monday). Not a lot really, but when you are burnt out and just want to sleep, well lets just say sleep and getting stuff done doesn’t go well together! I feel bad because I have been super cranky with the kids because I am tired, burnt out, and sick…oh yes, still sick. I just want a break! Only 6 more days…. My only concern is that I am all ready so burnt out after one quarter, how in the hell am I going to get through the next 5? Starting next quarter I not only have class but also an internship 2 days a week. What in the world am I going to do then? I can’t even do all the homework and reading now! Ug. I am excited/scared about my internship. I will be on an outreach team in the community and a case manager, I don’t even know what the hell a case manager does!! I talk to my field instructor next week so I guess I will tell him then I have never done anything like this before and I want lots of training so I don’t mess up!

In other news about me, I joined weight watchers again, and in the last 2 weeks managed to loose 15lbs. I know everyone thinks I must be starving myself, but seriously, I use all my points and eat. I am rarely hungry, except maybe just before I go to bed, but usually I have enough points left for a quick snack of fruit or popcorn. I am going to start slowly adding exercise as well and hopefully that will prevent a plateau. I want to get down to 150 (I was 155 at my lightest) and am at 205. However, because that is such a huge goal, I am just aiming for the below 200 mark, then I will get myself a little congrats present I am hoping to obtain this goal by Christmas!

As for Andrew, he is still gone. He will be home in about 9 days, so not to much longer. I am hoping he will get his leave and be off for 10 days, just in time for a 4 day weekend for Christmas, then another for New Years! YAY! This is really the only time of year Andrew ever has any time off so I am pretty excited, plus I won’t have homework so we can actually hang out, which will be a nice change of pace. Maybe go get a nice lunch together while the kids are in daycare, see a movie…something. Plus he needs time to relax I am sure.

The kids are doing good, Aiden’s ear infection came back so he is on stronger antibiotics. The daycare isn’t so happy because he poops so much on them. And by poops I mean out of the diaper and on all his clothes lol. But he is feeling better again. I still feel guilty about leaving them in the care of someone else, it makes me feel like I am not a good parent, but they love it so much and play so well with the other kids that I also feel bad not taking them. I sometimes watch them and I am so impressed/proud of them but I wish that I could give them that as well. It is very hard sometimes. I just feel like I should be a better mom and should have them at home with me instead of me going out and enjoying my time away from them. God I feel terrible just saying I like being away from them! Ug.

Anyway, what i am saying is they are doing great Mommy is now just for cuddling and tackeling and playing ball with. If you want pictures check out either my myspace or facebook pages. I have their school pics up there.

As for everyone else, I hope you are doing well! I will be back next week after everything is over and give an update then!