People are freakin stupid

I can’t believe how gullible people are these days – believing the whole state of the economy and everything else is the fault of one man – one man who everything he does has to be agreed and voted upon by the House and the Senate. Hello people, checks and balences. Didn’t we have to take government in High School?

And seriously people, look at freaking u-tube and listen to Barack’s speaches PLEASE the guy is a freaking socialist, and I know you all want to believe in a utopia where life is all swell and we say howdy to your neighbor who makes the same money as you and has the same house and gets the same amount of food and we all live in harmony – but we are American’s we are selfish, materialistic people. We are human. There is a reason socialism doesn’t work. It’s frickin stupid. Seriously, we need to remember these people tell us on TV what we want to hear – we need to look at voting records, not take their word on how the other person voted. We need to look deeply into their plan. AND WE HAVE BECOME A NATION OF WHINERS!!! People are fucking pussies. Look at freaking P.Diddy or whatever he calls himself complaining he can’t afford gas for his PRIVATE JET. Really? If you want to support a socialist, why don’t you give your 15million extra you have and put that towards social reform. Or why don’t we look at what oil companies profit compaired to other retailers? What about the tax breaks for keeping jobs IN america -

For the love of God, please please educate yourself before following what seems popular.

Hypothyroidism and Cloth Diapers

So, I have been debating the cloth diapering thing for a long time, I wanted to start when Landen was born, then again when Aiden was born but I couldn’t find a local place online and my mom and Andrew managed to talk me out of it everytime. I decided yesterday that to save money I was switching even if I was the only one doing it – and seeing as Andrew works like 24/7 I am now anyway – so I was talking to Jason about it, and he found a place in Columbus that does seminars on diapering and has a cloth diaper service. I was going to do the service at first, but the cost is the same as diapers, so I opted to buy the prefolds and whatnot and clean them myself. I ordered 48 prefolds and 10 covers for $240 – which equates to about 3 months of disposables ($28 biweekly for Landen and pull ups and $14 biweekly for Aiden). SO in three months we will be diapering our kids essentially for free. And it is so easy to do! If only I had known… I was so overwhelmed with the options and ideas and now I am totally confident. I also went on e-bay and am biding on some all in ones (diapers that include the cover, absorbant layers, and diaper all in one) that have Packer covers, also asked if she would make some Bengal ones … is it sad that I am so excited? I think the landfills will love me for it.

In other news, I went to my OB today to get my birth control checked. Everything is good, but I saw this pamphlet for a book called “The Thyroid Solultion” and I was reading it and all the symptoms that caused them to put me on Daypro and Prozac for depression and fybromialgia are the same as borderline hypothyroidism, something that the normal thyroid tests don’t pick up. I knew I didn’t have fybromialgia! So I ordered the book and I plan to follow that plan and see if it helps. If not I guess I can go back to the dr’s diagnosis, but I don’t really want to be on pills forever either. I actually quit taking all mine a month ago just because I didn’t think his diagnosis was right – especially since he spent like a grand total of 10 minutes examining me before making his diagnosis. So,  guess only time will tell.

So there you go. I am hoping for a good weekend. Andrew has Sat-Tues. off.

No Carbs…

Has been hard to deal with, especially in the mornings. I usually eat graham crackers with my coffee, and that’s what I did this morning since I cannot eat plain scrambled eggs and I have nothing to put in them until we get paid Friday and I can go grocery shopping. We have $12 provided Andrew hasn’t spent any of it…

So todays request is tips for getting out of debt. You don’t even know how much we would save if Andrew would just cut back on smoking or save his half smoked cigarettes to smoke later, or get him to use the banks ATM down the street so we wouldn’t get $2.50 in ATM fees every time. But doing that is like pulling teeth. I also am going to go print coupons and plan meals and only buy what we need for that. Any other suggestions would be awesome though. We have like 18k in credit card debt plus student loans. It’s rediculous.

Anyway, I gotta think about dinner and supper now. Wish me luck today – I don’t know if I wil be going to the gym. Aiden has an upset stomach still from trying milk (lets not even talk about that – Andrew was up all night with him) and Landen is testing me.

Okay, seriously I am going now…

Weight Loss…

is not as successful as I was hoping it would be. Despite the fact that I cut out soda and started eating more fruits and veggies and work out 1hr for at least 3 days a week I have yet to shed a pound. Seriously. Now, last time I lost weight I had to cut out carbs, completely. So, starting this second I will be cutting carbs out. The acception may be beer on the weekends (though I can turn to straight alcohol) and fruits and veggies and 100% fruit juice. To bad there’s no such thing as carb free chocolate….

However, my goal is to be under 200 by the end of the year. That is only a pound a week, so I think that’s a reasonable goal. So, sadly I am still sitting at 220, despite the gajillion crunches I do a day (between 300 and 400) and the 35 min of cardio at the gym. And constantly cleaning my stupid house and carrying around my kids.

Depressing.

Anyway, that’s really all. I have a kitchen to scrub after my kids go to bed. I just ate 8 thin slices of turkey with one piece of cheese and a cup of peas and a glass of apple juice. Here’s to will power….

So Far…

so clean. No more puking on me today!! Also, the downstairs is managable now and I am working on folding all those clothes still from our trip and getting them put away. Then comes the spare room. It never ends. I also need to clean out my closet of the 6yr old sweatshirts that feel like a wool scrub brush on my skin and sell some toys to once upon a child.

As for the gym I have been able to once this week. Wendsday Aiden was puking on me and yesterday my stomach was upset, not that it would really matter because taking Aiden there usually results in him crying so much they come and get me. He has 5 teeth comming in which means that he wants to be near me 24/7, he isn’t sleeping alone because he wakes up constantly, and one minute he is fine the next he is screaming. So, tonight I am going to have Andrew attend to Aiden and I will take Landen to the daycare while I work out. Same for tomorrow.

As for this weekend we are going over to Sgt. Kyles, as per usual, and their neighbor that we are midly aquainted with is having a party so we will be attending that. Then, Sunday, we will both probably be suffering from a mild hangover and probably just hang out at home.

Hope everyone is doing well. I know I am trying, though cutting back on carbs, cutting out soda, and working out has yet to show much in the way of results.

A Lesson in Soy

I have discovered one important thing in the last 24 hours – soy milk makes my kids projectile vomit…usually all over me. So my dr told me that since Aiden has a sensativity to milk that I should try him on soy, so I gave him a cup yesterday and guess who got puked on 4 times? Well, yes, my floors, but also me. So, needless to say soy is out of the picture. It looks like I will have to do what I did for landen and pair regular milk with milk of magnesia until his body learns to deal with the protiens.

I have also learned that going anywhere with my kids is much to stressful on my delicate mental state and that my dog is about to loose his life because I will put him out to crap then he will come in and crap directly on my floor. No peeing, just pooping. It is beyond freaking annoying. I also feel bad because I don’t have the time to give him the attention he needs, so I am considering giving him away accept I won’t put him in a kennel like they do at the humane society and Landen loves him so much. So, I guess that’s one more thing I have to worry about…. *sigh*

Anyway, I have dog crap to clean up and a poopy diaper to change. When I complein my life is shit, I’m not kidding.

Motherhood

Sometimes I wonder if I am to be a mom. My kids drive me nuts, and I have an unusually short fuse as of late. It seems all the bad stuff they do outweight any good, and part of the frustration seems to be that my house is a constant disaster because the second I get anything done someone goes and messes it all up. It’s beyond frustrating. Also, Landen is a freaking drama queen and throws fits over everything and wants to “cuddle” constantly. Aiden is teething which means he has crazy mood swings and is happy one minute, screaming the next. This makes for frustrating trips to the store, gym, or anywhere in general because there is usually a fit thrown over something – me not being willing to carry landen, aiden wanting to be held, landen not wanting to leave or to ride on those stupid rides outside the stores (I could kill the person who did that to me). Basically I go no where because the stress is to much. Though i did go to the gym yesterday, and leaving resulted in a huge fit by landen, and when I got to the daycare place Aiden had all ready been crying. UG. And I get to do it again today. yuck.

So, as a result, sometimes I dream about what a wonder life would be without my kids. Which makes me sound like a terrible person. It’s not that I don’t love them so much as I had such freedom without them – freedom to go somewhere without the stress of knowing that a huge fit of crying will take place at some point. I don’t know if part of the problem is that I really don’t get a break from them or if I really am just not made to be a mom.

So there you go, a nastier look into the mind of a near-a-mental-breakdown-mom.

Back

from a little trip up to Wisconsin to see my sister, niece, and dad. I figure this will be the last time I get to go for about a year and my dad offered to pay for gas…who could argue? However, Wisconsin eating doesn’t settle well with my dieting attempts, as it is mostly meat, potatoes and fried stuff. But my did it taste good…but after a few days I was looking for a salad. I guess that’s a good sign. So, needless to say I haven’t made any progress in my weight loss this last week, however, tomorrow it’s back to the gym.

As for the kids, they are okay, all though Aiden is teething like mad. He has 4 teeth comming through on top so he is a drooly, crabby butt. Also, Landen is sassy and I think his terrible twos might be 15 times worse than ever other kids. Plus, this morning he accidently broke my glasses so I have had to tape them. Gangsta, ya’all.

In other news about me, I have decided to take back my life so that I am not all mommyness, in that attempt I spent $60 to get back two of my favorite piercings, or the 8 I let heal – my nose and the top inner part of my right ear. I plan to get more, and when I loose the weight I want I plan to get one more tattoo. I am sick of trying to look/act like someone that I am not. I am not a perfect mom, and I don’t think I should have to dedicate my complete existence to raising my kids, especially because I am miserable. So, here’s to getting me back!

Really, that’s all. I am really tired from driving all night to get home. Hope everyone else had a good weekend!