Conclusions Have Been Made – Results in Progress

I have decided that I am in need of a life. My only adult conversations happen while making appointments or when Andrew comes home around 9pm, which is when I usually put Landen to bed, and fall asleep with him. I can’t wait to go back to school just for the interaction! I miss conversations and I feel dumber, in a sense, since i have been a stay at home mom/wife for the last 4yrs.

The good news is that this weekend we are going over to Mike and Beth’s house (Andrew’s station commander and his wife) they have 3 kids of their own, and 2 from his previous marriage. So they are cool with my terrors. Also, adult conversation and copious amounts of alcohol, of which I haven’t had in….3 months? Mmmm. Anticipation!! I hope its fun!

In other news, I have started working out/eating better again. Of course this is only my third day, but hey, whatever!! I do about 100-160 crunches (man does my stomach hurt) and 10 minutes on the bike. I know, that doesn’t seem like a lot, but I am, apparently, hella out of shape because I used to do 45min on the bike and 400 crunches plus push ups. HA! Not so much, but I will get there. Also eating a TON of fruit, but have to work on the veggie intake. We shall see. I will let you know if I loose any weight. I need to lose about 70-75lbs to be back to myself. I am hoping to lose 20 before I start school in 3months. That may be a bit high – lets shoot for 15.

Anyway the kids are good, Landen loves playing outside and trucks. Aiden has 2 teeth now and is crawling like crazy, even close to walking. We leave for Florida in a week and I am excited about the condo and getting to see everyone, not so excited about the drive, but we have the DVD players so Landen should be happy at least.

I guess that’s really it. I hope everyone is doing well!!

Soooo….

Here I am, here you are, and yet I still have nothing really important to say. We are driving, yes driving with 2 kids and a puppy, to Florida. Why? Because Andrew has a death wish. We are leaving July 3rd or so and have rented a beach condo for our week long stay because there really isn’t enough room at his mom’s for all of us. We will meet up with Andrew’s step-brother and his sister while we are there too. Andrew’s family hasn’t meet Aiden yet.

Let’s see…what else? I found out that 2 yrs at OSU is going to put us $40k more in debt. That’s exciting. Also, our house hasn’t sold yet (though I don’t mind) the only bad thing is they keep having showings, giving me about 2 hours to completely clean my house, which is impossible with two kids because I have yet to FLY. But now my house is clean b/c we had yet another showing and no one came. So my house is clean….well there might be some stuff stuffed in drawers that don’t belong there…but lets not think about that.

Also, I have yet to put pics on flickr so you won’t get any right now. To bad for you. Also, I haven’t stuck with weight watchers, even though I need to lose weight. I don’t seem to have the will power necessary to eat mostly healthy.

I guess, really, that’s it. I am going to go enjoy a few seconds of relative quiet and….pray for Andrew’s leave to come fast.

Self Control

I don’t know what it is but when I feel sick I eat more. I feel like I am going to throw up, so for some reason my head tells me to eat. I feel better while I am eating, but after I feel even worse. I don’t know what the deal is. Part of the problem could be how tired I am and depressed, I tend to eat in those situations as well….I just wish my dr would call with the referral….

A Different Appt.

So I went to the dr to talk about permanent birth control and constant cramping. He said that he wouldn’t do a radical surgery like permanent birth control unless it was absolutely necessary, so he is giving me a new type of birth control to see if this one works, but if it doesn’t he said his only other option to help stop the cramping would be a hysterectomy and to laser off the endometriosis that’s remaining.

As far as the specialist goes for the achyness, random nausia, dizzyness, and whatever else… I am still waiting on TriCare. Sure it’s been a week, but, you know, take your damn time.

Anyway, things are good, the usual. Still working on the FlyLady program, but the exhaustion and the pain kinda keep me on the sidelines. I was doing great for a couple days, but now I am aching and tired despite the pills…I guess I just have to wait for another good day….

Hope everyone else is doing well.

Trying Something New

With the Daypro and uppage in Prozac I have a bit more energy (still tired, just a little more energy to make it through the day) and the aching is at a dull roar so I can actually function on some level, a low level, but a level, so I decided that I need help getting organized. I heard great things about FlyLady so I joined and am doing the 31 day intro. One day at a time I guess is the motto, so hopefully I will be able to stick to this. I also am hoping to get back into WeightWatchers so I can lose some of this weight. Though, when I am depressed, which I am almost all the time, I eat to feel better. I get hungry and eat and eat….and eat. Which, unfortunately means I gain weight.

In other news I secured daycare for the boys. It’s a Christian daycare where they do prayers and chappel and all that good stuff. Everyone seemed nice, they had a decent report from the state, and the place has a great playground and they had all the right answers for my questions. I am actually excited about them going, nervous, some feelings of abandonment, but excited.

The boys are good as well, Landen is starting to say some broken sentences and Aiden is crawling like a crazy person, even got up a step yesterday. I am going to be in real trouble soon!!

So, as for the weekend, Andrew works tomorrow, the dog goes to the vet, and the a/c man is coming to look at our unit since the house won’t cool below 73 and is running funny. I also am hopping to get a little organized, maybe just get the clothes folded would be a huge accomplishment.

So there you go. I am going to watch Days, try and sort through the toys, and get ready to hit WalMart for a kiddie pool.

The Prognossis

So, I don’t know if I mentioned this, but I went to the dr 10 days ago for a few reasons. I have been aching all over, extreme exhaustion, random nausea, light headedness, increased depression, and a few other things that I can’t remember – oh yeah a fuzzy feeling where I forget or kinda lose focus. Anyway, so I got a bunch of blood work done and I came back slightly positive for lupus. So I have to go see a specialist and get more testing.

Here are the symptoms, the bold ones I have:

* Fatigue
* Fever
* Weight loss or gain
* Joint pain, stiffness and swelling
* Butterfly-shaped rash (malar rash) on the face that covers the cheeks and bridge of the nose
* Skin lesions that appear or worsen with sun exposure
* Mouth sores
* Fingers and toes that turn white or blue when exposed to cold or during stressful periods (Raynaud’s phenomenon)
* Shortness of breath
* Chest pain
* Dry eyes
* Easy bruising
* Anxiety
* Depression
* Memory loss

So there you go. I am taking daypro to help with my joint pain. So far…nothing, but I did just start it. Also upped my Prozac.

In other news the kids are good, though I think Landen is getting a cold or something. The dog is still crapping all over my damn house, and, uh, yeah I am going to add a page for pictures some day. I need to upload them to Flickr. I did finally manage to move them from my camera to my computer though….believe me that took months alone.

Anyway, I need to sleep. I am SUPER tired, like always.